This morning there was again glorious colour at sunrise. No-one else nearby to see me wander out in dressing gown and gumboots, so quiet and peaceful, soon at 5.30 a.m.
The sky, those colours, and the quietness gave me some sense of peace, after 2 troubling days. Hugh is again, or continuing to have severe pain from his spinal problems.Monday was a blur, Tuesday off to hospital by ambulance. This time, I guess I looked tired, exhausted, I was both, well and truly…. and played the card of despair!!No need to embellish, or tell a lie, or even turn on the tears… just told them how it is, and it is getting too hard, for both of us. Before they could see me deal out another hand, it was all arranged. Second opinion here, another one through our GP at a different hospital. Fresh eyes, different ideas, maybe we will get some very straight answers. The doctors we saw made the decision quickly, all was done quite some time before we left, and the nursing staff were very caring, and thoughtful … I cannot tolerate a Doctor who will not tell the truth, and dodges the answers so carefully.
Christmas will be here next week, I am not ready for guests, presents are not ready, baking has not been done, but after The Sydney Siege and the Pakistan slaughter, our troubles are so small .I cannot understand any of this, and wonder what the world has done to deserve these atrocities.
Quotation of the day, by Jean de La Fontaine
Greetings from Jean